The Trump administration gave transgender troops an ultimatum this spring when it announced that it wanted them all out of the military. Leave voluntarily and get an honorable discharge and extra separation pay, or wait to be forced out and potentially face negative repercussions.

Now, the deadline for making that choice is here, and many trans troops say they will stay and fight.

Katie Benn is a captain in an Army air defense battalion at Fort Campbell, Kentucky. This spring, she briefly considered giving in and taking the separation pay — worth about $60,000 for her. But then she remembered a part of the Soldier’s Creed that she had repeated many times in her career: “I will always put mission first, I will never accept defeat, I will never quit.”

“Those are not just words to me — I’ve lived them,” she said this week. “I’ve been in the Army for 12 1/2 years. I’ve deployed all over the world. I can’t just quit.”

Benn decided to stay. She plans to apply for a waiver that would allow her to keep serving. If she is turned down, she said she would demand to go in front of an Army review board and have it explain why a decorated officer and a top graduate of the captains career course should be thrown out.

“I love my country, I love the Army, I love my soldiers that I work with every day,” she said. “I will continue serving so long as I am able — end of story.”

The Pentagon has said that there are about 4,200 trans service members — about 0.2% of the total force. They have been serving openly since 2016 in all kinds of military occupations: pilots, flight nurses, nuclear reactor supervisors, special operations medics, infantry leaders, explosive experts, cyberwarfare technicians, intelligence analysts.

In the first days of President Donald Trump’s second term, he issued an executive order barring anyone who is transgender from military service, saying that being trans conflicts “with a soldier’s commitment to an honorable, truthful and disciplined lifestyle.”

Two groups of trans troops immediately sued, arguing that the order was discriminatory and based not on the needs of the military, but on animus. A federal judge issued an injunction in one of the cases in March that blocked the ban from taking effect, but the Supreme Court overturned that injunction in May, allowing it to go forward. Hours later, Defense Secretary Pete Hegseth told an audience gathered for Special Operations Forces Week, “No more dudes in dresses. We’re done with that shit.”

The Defense Department promised active-duty trans troops twice the usual separation pay if they agreed by June 6 to leave voluntarily. National Guard and Reserve troops have until July 7 to agree, but many of them are not eligible for the pay.

After the deadline, those who refuse to leave willingly will be pushed out and may have to repay bonuses they were given for enlisting, according to the Defense Department. The agency’s policy says everyone who is forced out will be given an honorable discharge unless their record warrants a less-than-honorable discharge, but it is unclear whether troops will face other repercussions.

A Pentagon spokesperson said in May that 1,000 trans troops had put in for voluntary separation. The department refused to provide updated figures this week.

For those who are staying on, the cost can be high. Sgt. 1st Class Julia Becraft, who deployed to Afghanistan three times, led an Army infantry squad until the ban was announced. Since then, she has been sidelined by her battalion, because it expects her to soon be gone.

“I’m just here doing nothing until they make me go,” she said Thursday in a tearful telephone interview from Fort Cavazos, Texas.

She said the trauma of having her career, community and identity ripped away has at times been more than she could bear.

Becraft was hospitalized this spring for thoughts of suicide and was put in an Defense Department inpatient program for depression. She said four of the 20 patients she met in the program were transgender people dealing with the trauma of the new policy.

“It hurts when you love what you do, you love your country, and someone comes in and can take it all away because they don’t like what you are,” she said.

Cmdr. Emily Shilling, a Navy fighter pilot who is president of the transgender military advocacy group SPARTA, said that about half the trans troops in the military appeared to be opting to leave voluntarily.

Shilling, one of the service members suing the government over the ban, helps oversee a large drone development program for the Navy. For years, she said, she passed up lucrative offers from the defense industry because she liked serving in uniform. But faced with the threat of an involuntary discharge that might affect the security clearances she needs to do certain work, she decided to leave.

“The idea that this is voluntary is absurd,” she said. “This is coercion.” She added: “I felt like if I wanted to keep fighting this fight, I could be more effective by leaving. I’ll have more freedom out of uniform to be an advocate.”

Now that the deadline for active-duty troops has arrived, there are unanswered questions about what comes next. How will the military identify people to discharge? What kinds of repercussions will they face? And what steps will the military take to find people who don’t want to be found?

A senior defense official who briefed reporters in May said that the military would rely on the periodic health checks troops already undergo to screen for gender dysphoria and that commanders with suspicions would be able to refer service members in their units for screening.

It is unclear whether the military will return to the approach it used when gay service members were banned: teams of agents who hunted for closeted troops through a system of snitching, sting operations and coercive interrogations.

The Trump administration says the ban is needed because trans troops disrupt morale and their medical transitions are a financial burden on military readiness.